Old notes on my phone
From the high-expectation day to the no-hope day:here are the words from each exact moment
Doa Minta Pacar
Bapa yang di surga
tolong turun sebentar dari tahtaMu
Bantu saya menggaet si pujaan hati
Buang jauh gengsi ini n angkat pede
Supaya jadi cewe jaman milenium
Yang berani nembak cowo
Jauhkan dia dari godaan
Si bahenol Bella, si centil Jenny
Sadarkan dia, oh Bapa
Walau saya ngefans sama More Than Words
Ga berarti saya ga mau denger those three words
Kasih lihat dia betapa galau hati ini
Sampe tidur tak nyenyak dan makan tak napsu
Persis seperti kata lagu2 pop dangdut alternatif
Akhirnya ya Bapa
Ingatkan saya untuk say tengkiu to U
Saat waktunya tiba
Ketika saya sudah bisa bilang
'Kenalin, ini pacar saya....'
I'm not happy
I don't enjoy my holiday
It's going to end in tears
I can't understand why God said no to this request
A request that's so difficult to conjure up
That took many sleepless nights
A thousand dreams n countless day dreams
Now I have to face my greatest fear
That I would never find my true love
Would get to 35 n just have to marry anyone that happens to pass by
Would have to be alone and lonely for another year
And pass another birthday trying to look happy
Have to put on a brave face in from of every friend and family
who silently take pity on me
Just like now
N I'm thinking of crying in the airport bathroom
How low can I go?
Probably only as much as this
The tears already gather at the front eye socket
Like soccer players lining up to go to the field
n the pain still clinging there,
with every jab of its claw
I don't feel loved, not by God nor anyone else