Forgive me God for I forgetSo, I finally went for Confession, after 10 years.
What had prevented me on going firstly because I was not confident enough that I can follow it in English.
That was when I just started uni Down Under.
Then, as time went by, I just didn't feel comfortable of doing it since I felt that I had committed the sin of all sin, you know, when you started getting 'too deep' into a relationship.
Then, some more time pass by, I didn't feel that I'm that sinful anymore, hardly ever consider it necessary.
Then, back to my country, I always thought that I'd rather do it in Oz since I had the impression that the priests over here enjoy scolding on their 'sheeps' wrongdoing.
But then, last weekend, when I went to church with my folks, early as usual with them, I saw that the light of 'the' room (this special room for penance in Catholic church) was on, I just thought of doing it right there and then.
Mind you, that's how things usually work well with my life, when I do it on impulse rather than spending too much time analysing the to-be-act.
So I went inside with the book in my hand and trying to remember what were the general sins that I would like to mention.
I read aloud the standard statement for confession, kinda lowered my voice when I said, "...10 years ago" and listed out a small percentage of my sins (honestly, I couldn't remember more).
The priest didn't show any reaction when I said the number, and only stated the usual comment which I think was just the usual template and gave me the 'punishment'.
And that's it. I said thank you in a whisper voice, and walked out.
Couldn't believe how easy it was, I'm finally reconcilled! I was expecting some wise words from the priest, and he actually 'dissapoint' me. What an anti-climax.
And as I walk down the aisle, to my seat, then it dawned to me that I actually forgot to read out the Reconcilliation Prayer! I was supposed to do it after he gave me the instruction for penitence and gave his blessing.
So, does that mean I'm not pardon yet?
But I actually felt hot in the face afterwards, which I took as the process of cleansing my body from all the sins, or it's just that the AC was a bit too far from me.
Worse still, now I couldn't remember, whether it's Psalm 103 or Psalm 130 that I was supposed to quote in my prayer for 4 nights in a row.
But since Psalm 130 is about God of Mercy, I think it should be the one (not to mention that it's much shorter!)